Today's My Utmost for His Highest had real bearing on where I am in my life right now. Here is the text:
Rehabilitation means the putting back of the whole human race into the relationship God designed it to be in, and this is what Jesus Christ did in Redemption. The Church ceases to be a spiritual society when it is on the look-out for the development of its own organization. The rehabilitation of the human race on Jesus Christ's plan means the realization of Jesus Christ in corporate life as well as in individual life. Jesus Christ sent apostles and teachers for this purpose – that the corporate Personality might be realized. We are not here to develop a spiritual life of our own, or to enjoy spiritual retirement; we are here so to realize Jesus Christ that the Body of Christ may be built up.
Am I building up the Body of Christ, or am I looking for my own personal development only? The essential thing is my personal relationship to Jesus Christ – "That I may know Him." To fulfil God's design means entire abandonment to Him. Whenever I want things for myself, the relationship is distorted. It will be a big humiliation to realize that I have not been concerned about realizing Jesus Christ, but only about realizing what He has done for me.
"My goal is God Himself, not joy nor peace, Nor even blessing, but Himself, my God."
Am I measuring my life by this standard or by anything less?
Well, am I? I want to be…I just don't know how to make it be. I know that we are commanded to be God's ambasadors wherever we are. I also know that going to "church" has no bearing on doing that or not. But how do you do that? How do you get involved outside of church? When I worked a secular job, I met people there. Other than that, I went to church. In Richmond, I work with believers. I go to church. How can I get involved in the community to meet people?
Right now, I'm having a great struggle with what I want to do and know I should do and how to get there. "Missionaries" aren't the only ones called. All Christians are called to witness. Some are called overseas while others are called here. Yet others are called to go about their jobs here and be witnesses that way.
Please pray with me that God would show me how I can be involved with Him and His work where I am right now in Richmond.